So 2 years and 5 months have passed and I've finally made it to ONDERLAND!!! I have so many mixed emotions about this new number (198.4).
... it just feels strange putting the "1" first.
... I am so very proud of how far I've come.
... I'm scared! I have not been this weight since I was on my way up (5 years ago). There's a small voice that says "who are you when you're not the fat girl anymore?" I know I have lots of great qualities but it has been so easy to use my weight as an excuse.... (my skinny friends will never understand this about me).
... What if i fail?????? What if i gain it all back???
... Why has it taken me so long to get here? Lots of people lose 46 pounds in a year and it took me more than twice that long. Why can't I just do it and get it over with already!
Thanks for reading